Below are the 10 most recent journal entries recorded in Jo's LiveJournal:

Thursday, February 24th, 2005
9:41 am	Still as bored as 2 years ago LOL Not been here for 2 years - wow. Thought i would update it and carry on with it. Still feel as bored as ever, can't goto work because i will be working for nothing!! I get Working Families Tax Credits and i have earnt over the limit that i personally am allowed to, they will take it all back off me in April so what's the point of working for nothing. Just work the 10 hours i am rotered for at the weekend. Asked employer if i could work more hours for lieu time - they refused point blank ....their loss not mine! Snow is still falling here, son just came home from school , i said have they closed school then he said no! Rang school up, told him to get his ass bak to school and i would be ringing up to check that he has signed in late. Out of character for him just to walk out of school, better not start making habit of it. Still feeling downright depressed, lost a dear friend 3 weeks ago, god do i miss her so much, life isn't fair - makes you wonder what it is all about. She was too young to go could have given 10 of my old ladies who i care for in my work who don't want to live anymore, they have lost the will to live - they tell me this and makes me feel really angry that someone died who had everything to live for :( She is still here in my heart, that won't leave me ever but i am still hurting like hell, as are so many others who loved her. Will take a long time to heal i guess, she was my adopted mum, best friend, everything my own mother never was to me or ever will be :( sounds harsh that but its true my mother left when i was 7, didnt want to know me and my sis as kids, and doesnt want to really know her grandkids now. She wants her own little life and gets on with it. Getting all depressed here again think i will go do some housework!!! (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 19th, 2003
8:38 am	Sorrowdweller. You are not overcome by anger nor happiness. Your emotions are pretty well balanced, but you do tend to get somewhat emotional at times leaning towards depression and saddness. You have your own views of the world and while you do not see the beauty of life, you are not completely overwhelmed by darkness. Live and let live just because. How Emotional Are You? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
Monday, February 17th, 2003
1:43 pm	Take the What animal best portrays your sexual appetite?? Quiz (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 13th, 2003
4:57 pm	:( Just found out that Carl died earlier today :( Cant be bothered with going to college tomorrow now, but suppose i should really, will take my mind off things. Don't know the extent of his injuries, but they decided to turn the life support machine off, as there really was no hope at all. Any of you who may read this who may have bikes, or know someone with a bike, please think twice about what you are doing on it, just be careful hey?, i know he was scrambling, but he did have an helmet on and still didn't save him :( (Comment on this)
10:48 am	Thinking Wandering how my mate is today, rang hospital this morning, but they won't tell me anything :( Been sat here all morning and done nuffink in the house, not in the mood somehow, plus my daughter is off school today, she kept up awake most of the night coughing. Just done an IQ test on some site, my score was 125 and told me the following: Our analyses indicate that your Intellectual Type is: Precision Processor. This means that among other things, you have superior skill in mathematics. Maths was my best subject at school and in my stats last year at college, i got 94% in the exam, so gone on to study advanced stats now which i enjoy. Ponders maybe i should study maths at uni instead of nursing or midwifery. Anyway gotta go and do a shift now so i better shift myself Current Mood: optimistic (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 12th, 2003
9:43 pm	Makes you think about life Well have not updated this for a while, even Dave noticed. After such a great weekend in London, get some bad news at around 3 pm today. A mate who i bought some playstation games from so he could buy a bike came off it today. The person who told me said he was dead. Brother in law comes round and tells us he is not dead but critical. He was riding this bike in the quary over the road from us, hit a tree head on and came off the bike. His nose went into his skull and my brother in law was first on the scene who called the ambulance. Trying to revive him, he couldn't no breathing but ambulance was there in no time. They revive him with defribulator and air lift him to hospital by air ambulance. I was told he was dead by mother in law who got the story wrong, i been down all day, as he was here on new years eve drinking with us and having a party, a real laugh. 24 years old with a 2 week old baby and a toddler of 4. Such a nice guy too, works and was on paternity leave :( I rings hospital at 20.00 hours and they tell me he is in intensive care critical, all they can tell me. Just bloody totally illusioned, hope he pulls through for his partner and those kiddies. Makes you think doesnt it about life, what is it all about, money worries go out the window when summat like this happens, its just shite and that is exactly how i am feeling at the moment. All we can do is pray and hope he makes it. (Comment on this)
Monday, January 20th, 2003
3:26 pm	take the Which Munster Are You? Quiz by tiffanie Gawd makes me look like a witch lol, well today has been so boring. Couldnt even be bothered to do the housework this morning. Another day wasted when i could have been out working earning some money :( Bit apprehensive as daughter is going to see an Orthotic tomorrow to see whether her movement has deteriorated, as she has mild cerebral palsy. She moves around ok, but has bad balance and children at school tend to make fun of the way she walks. Was going to move her to a special school last year, even got her a place in it, but then thinking about it, it may have made her feel inferior as really she's not as bad as most of the children who attend that school :(. We have a legal battle on our hands trying to prove that Lauren was in distress when i was in labour, this has been going on for the last 5 years now. She is to have an MRI Scan in Sheffield pretty soon, that's another thing on my mind at the mo, do i let her go without an anaesetic or will she keep still enough to have it without? One way or another it will prove to all parties concerned whether it did happen at birth or not, will put my mind at rest. Health Authority are trying to blame it on when i was in hospital at 29 weeks gestation bleeding :( MRI Scan will soon tell us, watch this space. (Comment on this)
9:19 am	Bored Well this week-end has been very uneventful. Worked with a sprained wrist hoisting people and lifting them, didn't help much i'll say. Biggest culprit is typing on here, but i can't help it, i must be addicted to the net big time lol. Had a down day yesterday though, felt weepy all day as i feel hubby and I are drifting apart again, we have been through this so many times, i guess it will turn out ok, always has done. Got my son off school again today, he has a bad cough and has been up most of the night. I think he's a medical mystery as he always seems to be off school with one thing or another and poorly :( I have told him to leave his body to medical science lol. Anyway thats all i can be bothered typing at the mo so i will go off and do some housework - all very exciting NOT lol (Comment on this)
9:13 am	Strawberry: 0/100 Pear: 20/100 Banana: 60/100 Tomato: 10/100 Lemon: 25/100 Take the What Fruit Are You? test by Ellen and Aaron! (Comment on this)
Friday, January 17th, 2003
9:03 am	Wondering....... Just signed up for this as a few friends of mine have already started a journal, they have said it has helped them. I am hoping that this helps me as i sit here day after day with so many thoughts and feelings running through me and there seems to be no release, so this maybe an answer for me, who knows time will tell. Just taken the kids to school, god it's so cold outside, the wind is freezing, gonna go make a cuppa to warm me up. Finding it harder and harder to get up, even though the last 2 nights i have been in bed at 9, just don't feel no motivation to do anything, maybe all to do with my past, i don't know, will mention more about this as time goes on. Gawd i wish i could get out and get a job through the week, sitting at home does my head in because all i end up doing is sitting on my PC after i have done the housework chatting and playing in the pub quiz on AOL. I work weekends because i get time and half for Saturdays and Double time for Sundays, and it seems to fit in, what would i do if i was working during the week and the kids were off on school holidays? Can't rely on Grandma to have them all the time :( I wouldn't get that kind of money elsewhere either for the work i do. (Comment on this)